Re-opened?

No way else to show what i wanna tell..... Sarah ain't here =/
Look at the time... Time flies ya' know? It seems like i graduated yesterday, but it's already 2years already.
*sighs* Have I grown up? Not exactly. Im still depending on my seniors ya' knw? Gosh.. These days? I met a lot of people with grumpy, snobbish, isolated and all sorts of attitudes. But i know it ain't their fault that they've become like this.
"Don't look back to the past that brought you sadness and laughter of regrets"

being stupid for 5minutes is better than regretting it the whole life right? I quit taekwondo. if im not mistaken, It's been 1year +. when i saw pictures of players working hard on tkd. i think back. Im such a pathetic coward. After all the hectic chaos happened, to forget all the things. i slack off and im a lazy shit.

I barely have the chance to see my BFFLs'. busy? yea....
what's wrong with you keep on showing others your cut fingers, showing others the fake smile and laughter? What problem do you have ????


You, you used all sorts of tricks and tracks. showing me that your head hurts or plaster here and there. telling others to text me there's something wrong with you.


ugh.... "words of empathy is better than words of sympathy" are you trying to use my heart again? My friends had always told me, Don't be so stupid, sacrifice for others , they'll only use you for advantages. I never listened. never will. You believe in Karma? Actually I don't cuz of all the years. I've only had one aim to make everyone happy.

i wanted to type more... but now's not the time. Im tired, exhausted , sad. mixed emotions....
Exam's coming. i have no tuition teachers...

The is it~THE END

This Ain't a post about Michael Jackson. But it's the final reminiscing post I'll make. It's the end of story.

For the past few years.... I've been changing and all. I hold on to a quote " I can be anything I want But i can't be everything you desire"
Try hard and you'll know anything can be achieve.

I'm no superstar or any popular girls. I'm normal okay? normal enough to have just a few friends that truly cares, some just sympathy me, but some treats me well for a reason at the back, the rest just like to backstab me.

I have no idea why you won't stop. I keep my promises. remember that. And the promise won't be broken. It's just that i no longer can be the friend you want me to be. Maybe you think that she's a freak or whatever. She's my best friend, and i don't want you to do anything bad or whatever. You misunderstood her, yet now you're telling me I don't understand you. I didn't tell you to do all those for me. I told you it ain't worth it. I ain't the one qualified. Maybe you never really knew me, My past is a nightmare to me, my future is more or less i don't even want to think about. all I want to do is be happy, all it matters is now. I don't throw rubbish on your head, I don't tell lies at the back of you, I don't go find out who's your best friend and raid information about he or she. I've forgiven you, but that mark will stay in my heart, it'll stay that way. I'll only hope that time can heal wounds and make it fade. I was chosen to live this life. On account of that, I never want any of this happen. Choices are the things that makes everyone special. How can i be chosen by god to change your life and anything. Lessons are learnt by yourself, you must fall in order to know how it hurts. You must listen to others in order to know. You should believe your heart instead of listening to words. Feel My words...I've forgiven you. but I can't accept the fact that you hurt me and all was because of me. I don't reveal your name or anything cuz i respect you.

As everyone should know, most of you are older than me, I was born on Octorber 10th 1996. I'm still a 13year old lil' kid. I know nothing about this world. I still have a lot of life obstacles to go through. I try my best to climb back up when people step on me and push me down. I have friends that care, I have also friends that want me to die and go to hell.


You can say anything about me. I have no rights to stop you. Because no matter how hard i try to explain. your mind is already set to an idea that i will always be like this and so leads you to making up stories and predicting the future in your own world. working on your own and when you hurt the people around you, you will never know too. I try my best to close up my feelings. I don't want anyone to worry. I don't want to see people's face worrying, all regret and all sad. I don't. I try my best to make people smile.


I'm not the best of the best. but i work with the best i got. I ain't as smart as you all. I ain't as fancy like you all. But I still know what's right what's wrong. I never knew people could change like this... when i see people that i'm so close to changes to another person that i don't even know. It scares me.


what can i say. the world is an unfair place. What can i do? Cry all night long until the end of my life? I make the best out of this wreck at least i do something useful instead of crying or hurt myself or whatever. I'm me and you can't change that. Everyone has a heart that's good when they're born. It's the same. We're special in our very own way. I'm happy that i know all of you out there, no matter you hate me, love me or whatever. Cuz one in a million of the people in this world. i have a chance to know you. It's my luck i guess. =D


Well this is it i guess
Carmen

If the person that changes everything never appeared in your life.
I wonder what would it be?

A lie that draws a smile?
Or a truth that makes tears drop?

It's your own opinion .